I want to belive

What makes us human beings? Is it our belief in something? Our faith that we are doing good?

Sometimes, I wonder if that is true? Belief makes us intelligent!!!!!

People might argue that Hitler had his beliefs..... Manson had his belief and all it led was death of thousands in onecase and some in other. But still they had that faith and belief that whatever tehy were doing was good. Or were they pure evil manipualting others into their biddings of insanity...


I hate to belive that.. I dont want to belive.. life is too sweet too beautiful for that... people cannot be pure evil... we are just not made that way....


I belive in good... not that it affects others... Just like the Cancer Man.. who had his beliefs... he might have lost everything to it... bu he might mot have regretted it...


What finally matters is living life with our ownthoughts and faith and an happiness that cannot be conquered......

I think I found it....
All he best to the others....

Nice Song by A-Ha

The Sun Always Shines on TV
by

A-Ha


Touch me
How can it be
Believe me
The sun always shines on T.V
Hold me
Close to your heart
Touch me
And give all your love to me
To me...

I reached inside myself
And found nothing there
To ease the pressure off
My ever worrying mind
All my powers waste away
I fear the crazed and lonely looks
The mirror's sending me these Days

Please don't ask me to defend
The shameful lowlands
Of the way I'm drifting
Gloomily through time
I reached inside myself today
Thinking there's got to be some way
To keep the troubles distant

Touch me
How can it be
Believe me
The sun always shines on TV
Hold me
Close to your heart
Touch me
And give all your love to me

There is no pain, you are receding............................

I am receding. Into the darkness where I came from. The nightmares catching up with me once again. I had one last night. They repaid me with interest. Torture for 3 hrs.

But I had a nice dream. THo it didnt make me forget my nightmare.

I just wish I was on a sea beach right now. With the Sun setting. Revelling in the monotony of waves crashing. The Sun slowly dropping going down. The night coming. I want a clear night with stars and a full moon. Watching the white foam. Digging my hands and my feet into the wet sand.

Probably trying come face to face with the truth. There is no running awauy from it, is there???

God I hate this work. Its getting sadder day by day. But its Good. New challenges, new people to meet.

But then the hollowness comes. The soul scuked away leaving a void. Go away, have a great journey. Hopefully, you will find a more worthy body who can actually do justice to you.

The beer is calling, where are you?? What are you waiting for?? Feel my chilled body. Wipe the moisture of me. Take a sip. Everything would be gone. Enjoy. Feel the warmth.

A distant ship on the horizon or is it a trawler. I can see the distant light. Shining with hope. We fight they tell me. We struggle to survive. We beat the odds. Be like us. Be like that lighthouse all alone but still showing the way. Learn something, do something.

The past is gone. Its just a memory. Did it exist?? maybe not. The present is there. Trapping you inside its slimy body. The jaws open wide. YOu are helpless it says. You are pathetic. You cant fight.

The night grows old. YOu can see the sky light up slowly. The dawn is coming. A new day. A new Hope, a new breathe of life.

It says dont let go.


A HAPPY AND PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR TO YA ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


PS: I wanna learn DJing this year :)

SAD

Somehow it seems to be that most ppl are sad. They with their cars and credit cards and flats and designer stuff and their 10 X 10 inch cubicles are sad.

I know they are sad. I belong with them. I feel it too.

The question I ask is WHY??

Do we have the right to feel sad and be in pain??? WHt for?? We with our atomic existance so lost within ourselves.. Wht are we sad for?? Or have we become Apathetic?

We have lost touch with the world outside? Ppl are dying by thousands in tis world, we are sad with our pathetic selves. So fucked up, naa

Say no to Sadness. Be Happy it your right. NEways doesnt matter, we would die due to heart attacks by 40. Most of us.

So go ahead be SAD. Wallow in SElf Pity.

The Fires are waiting for you.